Monday, December 20, 2010

Weight Loss Program: Being Accountable

So, I had a great weekend with the Eagles amazing win!  Philly has just been beating up on New York all week long: we stole Lee, beat the Rangers and totally stole the hearts of the Giants in 7+ minutes!  Sorry Aunt Marion but I told you to stop trying to brainwash my son:-)

Anyway, eating wise I had an interesting weekend.  I just wanted to eat this weekend.  I think it's TOM rearing its ugly head.  Usually when I get that light-headed feeling when I'm getting up, I know TOM is heading my way. So, I did a lot of cooking this weekend and I've been having a tough time not picking/tasting as I go.  I am logging everything though so it's being accounted for.  Anyway, I decided to make some cookies as Christmas gifts for the teachers in my son's daycare and I had 1/2 of one.  It was really good but it tripped me all out.  I didn't feel good about eating it.

I tried to justify it: "You only ate half...you could have eaten more...you just wanted to see how it tasted...it's not a big deal....if you were on weight watchers you could have had it no problem..."  Truth is I'm not on weight watchers and it's not something that is on my program and I ate it because it looked and smelled good.  That's it.  But, I'm not gonna make it into a big deal b/c I've thought about why I did it, I'm not making excuses, and I'm back on track today but I did need to be accountable for eating it.  That to me would be worse than eating the cookie.

It's funny though.  I feel the temptation of off-plan food more than I did in the beginning.  I don't know why exactly, but I do know that I just have to make the choices every day that work for me.  So, while the temptation is there, I also just feel like I'm not the same person I used to be and my decisions are just better, more purposeful and based on maintaining a healthy lifestyle.

In other news:  I freaking freezing!!!!!  My fingertips are blue! and I had to cover up my cute outfit of my mom's olive green sweater that I've gotten a ton of complements on with my too, too big sweater from my former life...come on, man!  How's that for irony?  I lose a bunch of weight and get a getting their cute body and have to cover it up cause I'm cold!  Well, I guess my man is pleased:-)  Later, yall.

1 comment:

  1. That was a great game! Loved the fact that Eagles won. They are hot!

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